New Openings, New Resonance – From My Heart
I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting over the last week. This is the first year I haven’t done the 4 Days of Healing event – either at the end of the year or at the beginning of the New Year. It’s given me time to be with myself at the close of the year in a way haven’t in a long time (not since 2010 – when I was leaving my career in mortgage lending behind and stepping into the unknown of making a living sharing my spiritual gifts). Today I’ve been thinking about all the ways I could have interpreted the inputs I was receiving differently as I’ve moved through my life since this time nine years ago. For example – I was afraid to go to the in-person meditation retreat in September of 2007. Had I not gone out of fear, I wouldn’t have shared time with Lin David Martin – the man who told me “you should be working as a healer” at the close of that retreat. Or when I began sharing my gifts with others in January of 2008 and my hands and feet started tingling and buzzing – I took that as a sign of the gift revealing itself to me. What if I had gone to see a medical Doctor? Perhaps I would have been diagnosed with neuropathy. Or the therapist I was seeing in 2008 – who, when I started telling him about this new healing gift that I was beginning to share with other people around the world, responded: it sounds like you may be getting into magical thinking and suffering from delusions of grandeur. My response was to stop seeing him immediately.