Crashing My Plane — From My Heart
I love flying remote control planes.
It’s one of the things that I do that gives me pure joy. Each time I get to play with a plane I marvel at the miracle of flight.
Sometimes between sessions I’ll go out in my driveway and fly for 10 minutes – always returning inside for the next session with an even bigger grin!
This past February I went to my local hobby store and bought a plane with ailerons and a much more powerful motor – a new level of complexity for the type of plane that I had been flying to that point.
And there the plane has sat on my dining room table since, waiting to be assembled.
Why haven’t I put this plane together and flown it?
Fear that I would crash it my first time out.
Isn’t that the perfect metaphor for one phase of the spiritual journey?
When we first become aware of a new gift we hold back in exploring it for fear that something won’t go “just right” when we roll it out for a test flight.
This “early gift awareness” phase is something I hear a lot about from students who are starting to become aware of their spiritual gifts.
But this is where the similarities end between my fear of crashing my new plane and the spiritual journey – especially around uncovering, exploring and sharing spiritual gifts.
We could call the first phase: “Fear that I’m a fraud.”
This leads to the second phase: “Fear that I’m not a fraud.”
Marrianne Williamson’s well known quote speaks directly to the second phase of exploring and sharing spiritual gifts.
A fear of our infinite, Divine, power:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?”
“You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.”
“We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” – Marianne Williamson
You know you’re on your purpose is when Marianne’s quote resonates deeply.
(note: I’m not afraid of my light when it comes to flying a remote control plane, LOL! I am however, surrendering my fear of letting my light shine as a spiritual teacher and healer.)
I remember thinking as I was growing up: “I am here for some bigger purpose. I wonder what that is?”
In truth, we are all here for a bigger purpose.
In part, that bigger purpose is to remember and experience of who we really are individually and collectively; to utilize your Divine given gifts to support your own journey; to facilitate and serve others by sharing your gifts with the world.
And to have fun!
Yesterday in session with a long time client we were talking about these themes – how we create distractions and excuses that keep us from stepping fully into our gifts and sharing them with the world.
The distractions and excuses create drama and stress, and keep us from our joy – and sharing that joy – those gifts – with others.
I said: Who are you to keep your gifts from the rest of the world? Who are you to tell God “NO – I KNOW better than you, and so I will keep these gifts you’ve given me hidden away” ?
Are you keeping your light hidden away so you don’t have to confront your own greatness – your purpose – the bigger reason you are here?
Are you playing a small game full of distractions and drama so you don’t have the energy or time to focus on your one thing?
If so – you’re not alone!
Is it time to stop kidding yourself and covering up your beauty, your light, your Divinity?
Is it time to stop hiding and ask for the spotlight?
Is it time for you to honor the (Divine) artist whose gifts flow through you?
Will you join the transformation of consciousness that is sweeping the planet right now by letting your light shine?
Will you serve the planet by serving yourself and God, by getting out of the way, surrendering control, and letting your gifts be seen?
Will you explore these gifts, knowing that you may have a crash landing from time to time – and that’s all in the learning – the Divine order?
Will you get out of the way, and let the Divine urge express, without trying to control it or make it better or different?
Will you surrender and be free?
For as you liberate yourself, you liberate others.
This past weekend I decided it was time to fly my new plane. I attached the wings, and hooked up the control surfaces to the radio, and went outside with my daughters to fly.
I marveled at the power of the motor – how fast it took off and how well it moved through the air – much more responsive than my first plane.
I took off and landed successfully three times.
Before the fourth takeoff, I asked my girls: “Should we take off and land one more time?!”
They said no.
I was too excited – I took off again.
And climbed up over the driveway.
I banked to the left and flew out over the field that stretches down from the house.
I nearly crashed as I played with how much power was needed to sustain flight.
I turned to the left gaining altitude.
And again, even higher.
But this time my turn was too tight.
The plane went down.
I ran down the hill to find a broken wing, and the front landing gear bent.
My kiddos wanted to know if the plane was OK.
I told them there were some things that were broken – but they were easily repaired.
My first crash was out of the way.
Now it’s OK to just play and fly whenever the inspiration strikes. I can enjoy this more powerful, nimble plane, rather than leaving it inside in favor of an older plane I have already mastered.
I’m thinking it’s time to go fly again, right now. It’s time for fun.
By the top of the hour I’ll come back in and have more fun when I go into session with a new client.
Thanks for including me in your life. Because of you, I get to share my gifts with the world and let my light shine for a living. Thank you.
I must be the luckiest guy on the planet!!
That’s it for this week … From My Heart.
The Soul Archaeologist
Experience the Divine Within