A Dark Secret — From My Heart
Inside most people is a secret box they are hiding from themselves and from others. Inside this box we believe are our darkest secrets – the part of ourselves that if anyone else knew about – if we examined ourselves – would confirm our worst suspicions about ourselves:
That indeed we are broken and flawed. That we have fallen from grace with good cause.
That God has abandoned us because of what is inside this box.
We think if we really took a good hard look at ourselves and held the contents of this box in the light, we wouldn’t just suspect what we think we know, we would have it confirmed many times over – and new proof would come to light.
The final lines of a proof we’ve been writing our entire lives … about how broken we think we are.
This is an illusion.
There is nothing inside this box but light – indeed the box isn’t real. Yet the only way to discover this is to hold it up to the light – an exercise too terrifying to engage for many.
God has not abandoned us. God meets each of us exactly where we are … completely.
No amount matter how many times you say a certain mantra or hold an intention to change, you are still the beautiful HUMAN being that the Divine created, with all your wonderful flaws, and all your amazing gifts.
Note that the premise (for many) of an intention, affirmation, or mantra is that the opposite condition is true. If I say I am whole – I say it over and over again because I want it to be true, yet I believe the opposite is true.
No matter your experience or belief, you are, in fact, whole.
What do I know of this dark box?
I have carried my box for decades. Inside I have stuffed the evidence of my many flaws.
The internal discourse that lead me to conclude years ago that I was fundamentally unlovable and unworthy.
Every time I have opened my box all I have found is my light and another perspective to integrate.
Each time I have held it out to be seen in the light, I have discovered another way that the Divine loves me without condition.
I more fully remember who I really am – a child of light.
The power of being witnessed by another who is capable of seeing you for who you really are cannot be put into words.
Lin David Martin saw me first in the fall of 2007 when he told me I should be working as a healer.
My soul broke through in response to his words and I sobbed uncontrollably, even though I didn’t know what the word ‘healer’ meant.
Ask anyone who sees you as you are if they can see the dark box, and they will respond “What are you talking about?”
The illusion of separation can cloud our own view, but not necessarily those who witness.
May you deeply recognize that all that arises from illusion is merely the first course of the meal.
The first course cleanses the palate, setting the stage for an extraordinary feast.
My first session with Lin was on Thursday, December 27th 2007 – before I began exploring my gift.
My second session with Lin was on Thursday, December 13th 2012.
It was like coming home.
After Lin went into trance, I felt myself surrounded by a loving presence that makes me sob even as I write these words.
May you also find a way home with one who sees you as you truly are.
One path to shining the light into your box is complete surrender.
With complete surrender, comes complete freedom.
Have you ever had someone in your life that you really wanted to see you for who you really are?
For me it’s my dad.
When I spoke with Lin in December, it was like hearing my dad tell me all the things I wish he would, but know he could never say.
It felt so good to be fully seen.
I’m looking forward to my next session with Lin.
Here’s to shining your light into all the dark places inside, and discovering only light. Shine on my soul brothers and sisters!
That’s it for this week…From My Heart.
PS – If you’d like to connect with Lin you can find him here. http://lindavidmartin.com/