Have you ever stepped back from speaking your truth?
LOL, me too!
About two and half years ago I was working with a young man who had advanced stage testicular cancer. At the start of each session I would ask him how he was doing.
On this day, he told me he was worn out and frustrated. He described how he was seeing 10 or 20 different people each week looking for his magic bullet – a way to beat the cancer that had spread into his abdomen and was sapping his energy more and more each day.
All those people had different ideas about what to do, and it was wearing him out. Without a thought I instantly said to him that I didn’t want to be part of a process that caused is dis-integration. Words started falling out of my mouth without any conscious awareness on my part…
I said: “I’m going to give you a resource you can take with you today, that will help you feel better, no matter what is going on.” My left foot buzzed – the Divine telling me that this statement was true.
In a moment of self conscious concern, I silently checked the next statement that was about to come out of my mouth before saying it out loud: “it’s a new breathing technique.” Again I got a yes with my left foot buzzing.
I told him “apparently I’m going to give you a new breathing technique.” Again my left foot buzzed. In my head I was wondering what would happen next. I had NO conscious awareness of what would follow.
I opened my mouth and…out came what is now known as Divine Connecting Breath (DCB).
Five months later I was over a filmmaker friend of mine’s office talking about an upcoming shoot we had planned of DCB. I wanted to be able to share this technique with the world. What better way to do that than filming me teaching it to a group?
But there was one problem: what to call this practice? I had been thinking about it for weeks – worried for months about how I would explain what it was. I wanted the name to reflect the technique – so you could hear or read the name and understand at some level what it is. And I worried about using the word ‘Divine’ in the title – thinking that would turn some people off.
I wasn’t ready to speak the truth, and own my power. I wasn’t ready to see and accept myself and my divine gifts. I was scared to be seen…so I called it “Oil Pan Breath.” Seriously.
I was lamenting all of this with one of the interns at the filmmaker’s office. He asked me what other names I had for it and I told him Divine Connecting Breath. He asked me why I was shying away from the truth. With his question, he challenged me to own my truth and step into my power. It was an important question – one that may have changed the course of my life. Fortunately, I owned Divine Connecting Breath before we shot video of the training. Perhaps you’ve seen that video?
Spiritual lessons have a way of presenting over and over again. When they do, it’s an invitation to mastery. A few months ago I was at a small dinner party with people I don’t know that well. One of the guests there asked what I do for a living. I said I was a coach. In that moment of truth I didn’t step up.
I was scared that I might overwhelm or make someone feel awkward if I said “I’m a spiritual teacher and healer.” In truth, I was probably worried about being rejected by this group. Seems silly as I write it now, but it was very real for me at that moment.
The opportunity for us to speak our truth comes up over and over again. Each time it’s an opportunity to own who you are and be seen. Are you willing to be seen?
You are not alone on your spiritual journey. We’re all doing the same dance. Some days we hit a home run and stand fully in our power and own our truth. Other days we don’t. It’s part of being a human being.
Next time you have the opportunity to speak your truth, will you? I’d like to tell you that I will. I’m sure I’ll have a chance to test my commitment to speak my truth in the next day or two. You probably will too.
That’s it for this week…From My Heart.
PS – Thanks to all who replied to last week’s PS about interest in joining the upcoming small group to uncover purpose and gifts! Even though you haven’t heard from me yet I’ve seen your emails and I will be responding!
PPS – If you’re wondering what I’m talking about, email me! I’ll add you to the list as well and you can be among the first to learn about the opportunity I’ll be launching soon. Curious about your purpose? Wanting to have your spiritual gifts validated (or learn about them more) in a safe harbor environment? This could be a great opportunity for YOU!
“The Soul Archaeologist”
Internationally Recognized Teacher and Healer
Creator of the Transformational Beneath the Sand Practice